So, It's officially over. I think.
:(
Summer is gone away, and fall is here. I mean, come on. It's September 23rd.
Ick.
But, things are going okay. I have a new goal, well a couple. I would like to be in total 12lbs down from where I am now. But, my little goal for right NOW, would be to lose 7 lbs by the time my bf comes home :) It doesn't sound too hard, but having already lost about that much, it makes it hard!
Being back at school has had it's effects on me, all summer I did amazing at going to the gym 4-5 times a week and keeping up with that healthy lifestyle. Now, back at school, time is getting to me, and so is eating fast. Which means microwavable crap.
But I can do it.
And I want to! It's just so hard to start. I am hoping Monday I can go to the gym for an hour, again. Then Tues, and Thurs as well. And keep it going! It feels so good once you do, so I'm really going to try. After all, my man will be here in a little over a month!! So I can't make excuses anymore!!
I also want to tan more, whiten teeth more, keep skin smooth and not dry from the wisconsin cold!!
Here I go, with school, photography and work it will be hard, but lets see how we do!
Friday, September 23, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Hello.. It's been too long, my dear friend!
Hello my bloggy! it's been awhile to say the least. You have been in the back of my mind as always, but I just don't give myself a lot of time for things that I should. But i'm going to tonight, even though I have a book to read, and memorize for tomorrow... :)
So, as you can see, it's been QUITE some time before we last spoke! Well, I last spoke.. and you sucked my words and feelings up. Today I realized (like many other days) that something needed to be changed. And it all started with a mirror, and a full belly.
Like many days, I see reflections and worse, pictures of myself. And I just don't know who I'm looking at. I don't see the girl I feel like I am (sometimes). I feel like the 'new' me, well.. ate that girl. I feel so horrid about myself, and I whine all the time so i'm not going to do that. I'm going to attempt to make a change, again. This time, I am not trying to freak myself out. Slow is key.
(isn't she hott? I want that back! lol)
I did not do well this weekend, and did not feel too good about myself. I ate when I wasn't hungry, and I ate a lot of sh$t. I wanted it to be done, so I wasn't tempted. How dumb!
So tonight, I worked out. It's been a long time since I even thought about doing that. I showered first, and I think that made it better. I worked out for 20 minutes, and did everything that I would have done, plus two. So I must say I pushed myself and it feels good (even though my arms are sore) to have actually did something I set my mind too. My love is making changes in his life, and I want to do the same. I want to be proud of myself and to be happy with me most of all. I am mad that I used to think I was fat when I was NOT, I was young and I think everyone feels fat when they are young. I've learned my lesson, but I'm feeling ready to attempt to feel good again.
So anyways, I really hope it sticks this time. Instead of having some realistic goal, I'm just going to eat better, work out as much as I can, and try not to get down on myself. Food lately has just felt like this empty thing, and has really brought me down. I want to eat good, and feel good. I want to be happy with myself, and I want my boyfriend to be proud of me.
So hopefully it won't be sooo long again, but the posts won't always be soo much i'm sure :) I better stop procrastinating on my homework, and start reading Flannery O'Connor... ooh boy...
-Dana :) <3
So, as you can see, it's been QUITE some time before we last spoke! Well, I last spoke.. and you sucked my words and feelings up. Today I realized (like many other days) that something needed to be changed. And it all started with a mirror, and a full belly.
Like many days, I see reflections and worse, pictures of myself. And I just don't know who I'm looking at. I don't see the girl I feel like I am (sometimes). I feel like the 'new' me, well.. ate that girl. I feel so horrid about myself, and I whine all the time so i'm not going to do that. I'm going to attempt to make a change, again. This time, I am not trying to freak myself out. Slow is key.
(isn't she hott? I want that back! lol) I did not do well this weekend, and did not feel too good about myself. I ate when I wasn't hungry, and I ate a lot of sh$t. I wanted it to be done, so I wasn't tempted. How dumb!
So tonight, I worked out. It's been a long time since I even thought about doing that. I showered first, and I think that made it better. I worked out for 20 minutes, and did everything that I would have done, plus two. So I must say I pushed myself and it feels good (even though my arms are sore) to have actually did something I set my mind too. My love is making changes in his life, and I want to do the same. I want to be proud of myself and to be happy with me most of all. I am mad that I used to think I was fat when I was NOT, I was young and I think everyone feels fat when they are young. I've learned my lesson, but I'm feeling ready to attempt to feel good again.
So anyways, I really hope it sticks this time. Instead of having some realistic goal, I'm just going to eat better, work out as much as I can, and try not to get down on myself. Food lately has just felt like this empty thing, and has really brought me down. I want to eat good, and feel good. I want to be happy with myself, and I want my boyfriend to be proud of me.
So hopefully it won't be sooo long again, but the posts won't always be soo much i'm sure :) I better stop procrastinating on my homework, and start reading Flannery O'Connor... ooh boy...
-Dana :) <3
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